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God Spot
This Christian Resource Blog has been created by a group of friends from around the world. Our purpose is to provide links to useful resources, some commentary on topical or doctrinal issues, a place where anyone can come with questions and a means whereby we can share our faith. And above all, to grow and encourage each other. As Christians, we believe we bear God's image in this world, and seek to glorify God's name in this endeavour. Any Christian who wants to join with us is very welcome!

Friday, May 13, 2005

To Gary

Dear Gary,

I trust the Lord will move you to come back for another look ..... and that you will read this.

Please can you forgive me for not being here on this blog, in a reading way, or a contributing way for some time? My only excuse is that I have experienced some slight concerns in my life in the past while and have hardly come to the computer at all for quite some time. The concerns (in case you are wondering) are all in Gods hands where I have firmly placed them, and my relationship with God, although questioned greatly by others, is not only well intact, but stronger than ever.

Back to you. I am actually glad you wrote your "Goodbye" post here and it is amazing that today, only one day after you wrote it, the Lord moved me to read this blog again! I realise now that God moved me to read the blog this afternoon, as I admit I have been a little selfish in just remaining concerned with my own concerns, and it is very good and necessary for me to reach out beyond myself and those very close to me.

You have always shown a really interesting spirit on here. You seem to me to be close to God, interested in people, in helping them and being there for people. This has been noticable from the first post I ever read of yours. In fact, if you are willing, I would be interested sometime meeting you.

Meanwhile, I have just read your testimony. No wonder you have formed a beautiful and close relationship with the Lord, as you have sought Him and found Him and He has meant a lot to you in your life. I appreciated your openess in sharing it with not only us, but any readers who may cruise by.

For myself, also in a nutshell, I am 47 years of age and when I was 12 years of age I felt very drawn to the Lord God and wanted Him in my life. I attended many services in our church, asking in my heart, many questions and yet they never seemed to be answered. I continued to have great unrest in my heart. At the age of 19, I decided that nothing seemed to be happening as far as coming to know the Lord Jesus, and so I made the decision to openly tell people I was now a christian. I became a christian in name, and a christian in desire, and a christian in my lifestyle, but not a christian in my heart.

I lived this way for many years, getting married at 23 years of age, and becoming an active member of our church. I always felt unfulfilled though and continued to have an unhappy heart.

When I was 43, I became obsessed with coming to know the Lord as life was passing and I was not any closer to Him than when I was 12 years old. I basically, due to desperation, spent 90% of my day in prayer and reading my Bible and trying to find Christ for myself. I asked many many people what it was actually like to know Him for themselves and how they actually did come to know Him. This was an act of delicacy, as I was supposedly already close to God for many years in everyones eyes! I discovered that not many people wished to speak of their heart thing with God (nor do many still like to) , and I became more and more frustrated.

Finally after a month of this desperation which overtook my heart, mind, Soul and whole being, the Lord God spoke to me in what might be termed audibly. I know it wasn't actually audible, as if someone had been in the room they would not have heard ... it was for me alone. I was also given in that moment, a physical and heart and mind feeling of utter peace. This was what I had been waiting for all my life! This was actually a supernatural experience. One which was my complete turning point and one which I shall never forget, right into eternity.

From that day until now, I have felt safe, secure, loved and very close to the Lord, and have never lost my peace of knowing Him for myself. The times since then (as I think you also experienced) have actually been difficult. God has not given us easy times, but this is something I welcome, as it has only driven me towards God in a deeper and deeper way. Now, when I have some kind of trauma or happening which I do not understand, or I would normally get frightened or shy away from, I merely go to Him in prayer........... for as long as it takes. The Lord ALWAYS ALWAYS fulfills me, and I leave His presence with overflowing love and satisfaction and a knowing that no matter what ... I am protected and loved. And I also love Him more than anyone or anything in this whole world.

Thats my testimony, Gary. I am so grateful to be able to share it. The Lord loves us to share these things as He loves to be glorified! As Max Lucado writes, and titled his book, "It's not about us"!! Our life is created to glorify Him in all we do!

I do hope Gary, that you can read this and know how much I apologise for not coming here as often as I should.

Love,
Carol

# posted by Caroline @ 2:47 pm

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